I was diagnosed deaf 24 years ago. This makes some things very difficult for me. When I was younger, I spent a lot of time asking God, “why did you make me deaf?” “why can’t I be normal like other people?”
When I was in Elementary and High School, I was bullied. They laughed at me, and mocked me and they called me all sorts of bad names. Every day, my mom and I would talk and pray every day. She told me that people used to say bad things about Jesus and call Him names too, so He understood exactly how I felt.
She told me that real truth is only found in God’s Word, and not in what other people say about you.
Some of my favorite Scriptures are:
Psalm 139:14 where God says,“I am fearfully and wonderfully made.“
God tells me in Psalm 17, ”I am the apple of His eye.“
In Deuteronomy 7:6, God tells me that I am ”His treasured possession.“
In Philippians 4:8, God tells me to think about whatever is ”true, noble, right, pure, and lovely.“
The last Scripture I want to share is Psalm 119:114, “You are my refuge and my shield. I have put my hope in your Word.” My confidence and hope is in God. I know now that instead of being a mistake, I am the Lord’s treasured possession.
I like to memorize Scriptures and fill my mind with the truth of who God says I am. This understanding has made all the difference in my life. Now I recognize that God has a plan for my life, and He created me just the way I am for His special purpose. I may still be deaf, but now instead of saying “if only” I wasn’t deaf, I say, “So what, I will glorify God just the way He made me.” I know He loves me and cares for me with His whole heart.
The Lord showed me that I am not a mistake, but I am a precious gift, His treasured possession. We have a choice to believe and fill our minds with God’s truth, which will change our hearts, or listen to what other people say. It is a choice we must each make. In Exodus 4:10, Moses tells God that he can’t do what God told him to do because he was slow of speech and tongue. In verse 11, the Lord said to him, “Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go. I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” He made me just the way He made me for just the special purpose I was created for.
If I spend my time wishing I was different, I will never get around to doing those things God wants me to do. Sometimes Satan tries to put thoughts into my head and tell me that I am no good. That’s when I remember the Scripture in John 10:10 that says, “The thief comes only to steal, and kill and destroy. I have come that they may have life and have it to the fullest.”
God does not make mistakes, and that’s the truth.. no matter what we sometimes may think. As Proverbs 3:5 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding.” Jesus is my best friend, and I love Him with all my heart, and I am fully His. There is nothing more important in my life than pleasing Him, spending time loving Him and reading His Word, talking to Him, and sharing His love with other people. His joy fills my heart.
If your heart is sad because you wish God had made you different, read in His Word the truth of what He says about you, believe it, and let Him change your heart. Nothing is impossible with God. He certainly changed mine!